My Epiphany...Nothing to say... nothing to do... string was cut... was all a waste...

5 mins... she raised her hand.... 5  mins to go...

a third has spoken... two thirds left unspoken...

thuds beat like a war drum... hinge of hair stood like spikes in a ditch...

spoken words flew out like music notes serenading from a classical guitar....

9 mins... she raised her hand... 1 min to go....

string was broken before the tune could even be completed... 

the war drum stopped... only whispers of cold cold wind could be heard...

shock rush... adrenaline rush... too late... 

tongue swallowed, too late to retrieve...

"points wont be taken from this point onwards..." she said....

"wanna continue?" she say...

"Yes! continue!" 

"Continue!" 

the voices said...

shutters closed... visions darken... tear drops.. drip... drip... drip...

words begin to flow again... then stopped at the cut... flow began.... then tripped... choked.... mollified, I'm done... choked... suffocated... bang and I'm at death's door...

this is my epiphany... over worked creativity... wasted creativity... wasted time... wasted marks... 

wish that marks are sucked, drilled, removed, spilled, others saved from pits of failure....except mine... totally deserved... "marks for the good... peanut for the failure.."

this is my epiphany, over thought.... over estimated ...over minded... over my head... 

surrounding words of comfort, waiting, over looking the prison... the cage... gates sealed for ever... no seepage... no room for comfort....

letters of words of "Its alrite..."... "better next time"... "dont get too worked up.." "i know how u feel"....

Thank you for ur kind words of comfort... but... u do not know or even know how i feel or what i m going through.. so dont judge me... 

drug rings... thief, gambler, pursuit from gangsters, Friend in jail ... mum could have almost have cancer.... friend got into accidents... in a coma... lost a friend in a world of darkness.... under hands of a puppet girlfriend... Torrie... in a coma and now ... in a grave in New York... home with the Lord...

u dont know what i m going through... NEVER say ... "I know what ur going through", "Take the chill pill."...." Chill man..." .... cause u don't ... no 1 will know know i feel... except of course ... God... yea... u must be making me go though this for a reason  n on purpose....   

how on earth i keep up a straight face in public i don't know... only God knows...

how i can life day by day with out throwing myself off a cliff .... only God knows...

how i keep thinking of jumping in front of a busy high way... only God knows...

how on earth i escape death ... countless.. i dont know... am i a cat now? with 9 lives?? ... only God knows...

This is my epiphany, lost friends... lost family... torn apart relationship... lost hope and will to live.. lost in pages of life... death is searching... death is coming... one by one and counting... death is trying to kill me... 

my epiphany....

my anguish, depressed, stressed, busy, scheduled life... things gotta change... and they will... 

things are changing now... 

people will think twice before choosing teams... "danny F***ed up last time...", "danny choked".. "Do not choose Danny... he F***ed up last time.."... " he s*** in his pants"....

don't think there are real feelings in the world now... all could be fake ... we know not...  

Realization... Clarity... o how many times it passes me by... now theres clarity.. and realization... 

My Epiphany... 

Danny...  

 

Berlin Wall cant be broken down!

OMG!!! I cant believe one of my teams lost!! (Portugal and Netherlands!!) but i have to admit that the Germans are hard to break down.... Not to say its a sad time for me.. but i was not sure who will win even though i m a portugal supporter...

but none the less ... i vowed to sherman that even if Portugal Lost i will still wear my Portugal team polo-shirt the next day....

no shame...

its Football...where magic can happen any time...

unlucky for scolari, Ronaldo... now this is where things will start to heat up! Ronaldo to leave Man U? That could be a choice... n i must say he just might switch to Real Madrid who seems to be leading the race to get his signature on paper!

3 teams that will be interesting to see perform next season.... Inter Milan, Chelsea, Barcelona and my team! LIVERPOOL!!! Gosh it would be great to see David Villa, Downing and Gareth Barry at the Kop!

Chillaxing at Starbucks... while doing some work!

Ahh.. just what i needed.... a loungy cafe area, my notes and work, my laptop with free internet and..... my Mocha Frappacino! What perfect area to just Chillax ( Chill & Relax) in a public area looking cool with my laptop like i'm some high tech kid enjoying life on the fast line of life!

well... not to say i'm not enjoying my life rite now... but this month has been a really packed month for me... as u guys know i have been quite the night owl lately from the Euros and also with a fresh pile of assignments, in the likes of Mass Comm, Advertisement, Mass Comm group presentation, Comm English, Research assignment, and also another presentation for Presentation Skills class and last but not least..... Computer Graphics Final Assignment (worth 50%)!!!

surprisingly... i'm not panicking lol since most are due at the end of the month... still got 2 more weeks to go... if i have learnt one valuable lesson since joining IACT... is... NO LAST MIN WORK!!! Its been a hard lesson tough to me last time has i had 3 Computer Graphics due all on one day... that was one big regret and i hope lighting does not strike twice!

If u guys have noticed... the past few post does not contain any real life pictures... welll... i lent my Olympus cam to Renee.... and i forgot 2 remind her to bring to college... ARGE!!! lol!

ANyways back to work...work....work....

EURO FEVER!!!!!

There is no doubt that i'll be a night for over the next 2 months i.e till 30th June 2008... the finals!! 

Yes... a night owl.... 

I will be rooting for 2 teams.... Portugal and Netherlands!! 

Portugal and Netherlands are really strong in their counter attacks and also great at keeping ball possession.... tho i must say the greatest weakness for the dutch is their defence but they have one of the best and most experienced goal keepers in the competition, Van Der Sar. 

Spain could be the dark horse here... they have been under performers in the past... maybe they can reach pass quarter finals this time round... 

France and Italy, obvious favourites and are past winners of this competition.... but france are lacking fire power, slow and also have old players.... Italy alike as well, but they are still strong and can be dangerous... tho i'm surprised Inzaghi was dropped from the squad... for Del Piero instead. -.-! 

Germany as well, always consistent, finishes at least semi finals.... another dangerous team to face and with the likes of Klose, Padolski, Ballack and Metzelder in defence... this a strong Berlin Wall!!! 

Any ways... i was suppose to post this ages ago... LOL was just... Lazy... was prompted by a few people to update my blog... Li Chuen, Sean and people... Good to see that people r reading my blogs and want to know more about my life! 

anyways.... chanting here... "Netherlands!!! " "Portugal!!!"  

Friday Nite Boardgame Fever! Happy Birthday I-Yin!!

OK...

i must apologize to me fellow readers that i haven't post anything since Friday! well basically i went back to Pahang, Temerloh to be exact for visit my relatives.. so i have been away since Saturday morn till Sunday nite.. I'll b writing a post on Temerloh soon, lol after i put this post in that is.! AKAN DATANG!!!

Anyways..... We went to Mage Cafe in DJ to play boardgames! if ur wondering why on earth cant we play at home? well... we dont play the traditional games such as Monopoly, Pictionery, Uno... its special games ;D .. by that i mean... ParkerBro's games are boring! there are new kids on the block with new games! but not sure their names la of course... Mage specializes in importing board games that are not available in malaysia and GOSH! they r fun!

We didnt know how to play most of the games.... so... we have an expert advisor!!!!

hehe... i was thinkin.... it must be hard to get a job there... lol u have to not just be a waiter and memorise the whole menu... but also to know how to play all the games available!!!! and there are like over 50+ games there!!!

(i cant be bothered to put all the picts of shelfs crammed full of games.... so there are a lot!!)

haha the games are so competitive.

here r some pictures of our competitiveness to the MAX!!!

hehe.. i can see that Mei Fong's Cell plays forfeits! Marwan i think hadto sing our National Anthem wahahaha!!!

Last but not least! It was I-Yin's Birthday!

I-Yin and her Cellies!

haha! it was a fun filled nite ! it was a combination of Denice's, Sue Ling's and my cell, around creating soo much noise and HAVOC! hehe .... everyone else was doing the same thing as well so thats cool!!!